T minus 7 days.

Baby launch in 7 days. Well, or so I hope! 

-39 weeks-

Photography done by Nadya Horvath :)

My appointment this morning was a total letdown, disappointment, emotional disaster for this hormonal mama. Do you know how it feels when you go from your doctor saying "it could seriously be any second" to "it may not be any time soon"? Maybe you don't. But that's what the doctor informed me of today.

The last week has been the slowest of my life. Luke & I were prepared for Chloe last Thursday. And I mean r-e-a-d-y. We hustled and bustled around the house getting the bags packed, loaded the carseat in the dark, and read online all about what to pack and not pack for the hospital and diaper bags. After all, when the Doc says "any second", this 38-week-pregnant mama holds tightly to that. I know 2 cm dilated doesn't mean anything too fancy schmancy but coupled with his other comments about how low her head is, my cervix was starting to efface, etc I had held high hopes. As the weekend came and went, I woke up each morning feeling just a bit more discouraged. One evening I was so desperate, I walked laps around the sofa while Luke & I watched a movie!! I even went to work on Tuesday to ring in the New Year "in case she came early" so I could have officially logged January work hours. As crazy as I'm about to sound, I went to my appointment this morning with a quiet voice whispering that I may be "the weird lady" that was in labor and the Doc checked her cervix and was magically 7 cm dilated... I know, I know. It's painful. I'll definitely know. There's no rush. Get some extra sleep while I can. She'll come when she's ready. I know those things but if we are being honest, I still wanted to be "the weird lady". As he checked my cervix, he said we are no longer "inducible". Last week he said that I was so close, I could have used a little push of medicine and this baby would be OUT. I wasn't ready to rush into that and wanted to wait for my mama to arrive. Since tomorrow is the day for that, I thought maybe we could set an induction date while at my appointment today. Ha! So things have changed, I'm no longer "inducible", and he ended with these lovely words: you may be one of the few that actually go over their due date.  Lord, give me patience. I want to spend some time enjoying my mom before Chloe comes and I don't want to sound petty with my ramblings. I know there are major issues in the world and I don't want to sound pathetic or downplay those things at all. But right now, this IS my world and I'd really love to meet this girl that I've been praying for, dreaming about, and planning for.

Here's to hoping my 40 week blog is all about introducing the blogging world to  my  our little girl (Luke reminds me often that she isn't only mine). Can't wait to meet you Miss Chloe Jane Gustafson!