Friday, November 16, 2012

Midnight Mama Ramblings

It's actually not midnight. It's now 5:18 am and I've been laying awake for almost 2 hours. Usually I get mad at myself for not sleeping, wondering why I'm awake and what's wrong that I can't just sleep. This morning however, I've spent most of my time in prayer for our little girl and our growing family.

My hubby and I have been married for 5 years and for about 4.5 of them, I've said I'm ready for a +1. He, however, gently reminds me that he married me and wanted a little more time just the two of us. That time is quickly drawing to a close and I spent a good portion of my prayer time, praying for my marriage. It hasn't been an easy path together and I know this new addition will make our twosome tough at times, but I prayed that we will be a "bob & weave" kind of couple... prayed that we will fight on the same team instead of fighting each other... prayed that when we are both tired, we will acknowledge that fact as opposed to starting to knit pick one another.... and prayed that this new chapter of our lives will be something we can reflect on when the kids are all moved out and wonder what we were so nervous for!

I prayed that our little girl takes after her daddy. He is kind and gentle, patient and understanding. He is compassionate and overflows with sympathy. Her daddy gives the best hugs and will completely envelope you just when you need it most. He is the best listener (as long as the TV is off!) and remembers what I say. He takes my moods with a grain of salt and is so quick to forgive when I realize that I'm being a bit... cranky! When he knows I'm about to be upset, he flashes the cutest smile that he tries to use to get out of "the dog house". He's always willing to help when I ask, even if that means picking up or folding all my laundry. He would do anything for those he loves. However, as he has begun snoring while I'm writing this post, I'd have to say I'd really prefer just one freight train in the house, Chloe!

I prayed for patience. For those of you who know me best, I'm sure you have a smile on your face (and a few of you are probably even praying that for me too!!). I hate how impatient I am. As my daughter cries in the night, I want to be able to thank the Lord that He gave her to me instead of getting upset that I can't get my beauty (or should I say necessary?!) sleep. I want to respond in love when I feel like my hubby is handling her differently than I would. I want to be understanding when she starts to question "why" to everything instead of just sending her to her dad to answer the question. I want to be patient when I'm teaching discipline and I've repeated myself 27 times by 10am. Oh Lord, I need patience in the years ahead!

Finally, I prayed for our walk with Him. Luke & I met on an amazing mission trip through Israel where we got to see where Jesus walked, taught His disciples, performed miracles, and ultimately where He paid the price for our sins. I want our daughter to grow up in a Christian home where we can teach her about God's love and forgiveness, grace and eternal life. I want our daughter to know, she is a child of God.

As I see 6:00 quickly approaching, I'm going to lay back down and try to catch a couple hours of shut-eye before my alarm goes off. And as far as patience goes, I'm sure it will be put to the test today since I'll be low on sleep.... Lord, give me patience today in preparation for the years ahead!!

2 comments:

  1. Crystal you will have many things to teach your daughter, and the best thing you can teach her is that you love and respect her father so she as an adult can carry that on into her life. We teach by example not by talking, you are an example of your parents raisings. You two are going to be great parents just follow your instincts and all will be well with your family.

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  2. Crystal, the Lord must be talking to both of us as I have been praying much the same for you. You will make an excellent mommy and God will hear AND ANSWER all of your prayers.
    Mom

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